To my sister i knew for a long time. To Erza aka Rachel

Not really happy today...something really been bothering me a very very long time. Just i didn't say it put for about a year or so? After SPM over till now i kept it to myself didn't even take it out and talk to people about it. Sometimes its really hard for me but i still go on with it no matter how much i missed her i still kept it to myself and think about her almost everyday. Since the day she stop talking to me till now i still thinks about her everyday. You might think i might be crazy but i treat all my sister the same. They are very important to me, anyone of them in trouble i would be sad and tried to help and also be there for them. That's what i usually do.

Last time i use to blog about her but sadly she couldn't read it at all coz i dont even know will she talks to me again on msn or even an e-mail from her or even a friendster comment from her i've been waiting the day to arrive since 30th of december till now. Finally the day that i have waited finally arrived. That sunday morning i tried my luck and left her a comment on her friendster because usually every month i will her a comment but recently i very busy so didn't bother that day tried i thought it would be the same but that night i checked my friendster there's a new comments sign showed on my profile so i thought it might not be her maybe someone else but surprisingly was her. I waited the day for such a long long time she finally left me a comment. I was really happy to see her comment but as usual she is always worried about me. I always let her worried about me i felt so bad.

I met her in pko for quite a long time before we even went for SPM, whenever i am sad or down she is always there for me to guide and advice me. She knows i will never let her down because i always listens to her and also always tried to make her happy whenever she is sad. Once i remember my friends that i use to had online wasnt happy with me at all and they went to her and talk about it, then that night she tried to talk to me about it. No matter what she said or what i know she wants me to be good thats why i didn't blame them for telling her. Plus she is my sister obviously they would go to her and they knows i always listens to her.But sadly i always made her sad and scared that she would me as a sister due to last i had health problem. Now i still do just its getting better and i didn't bother to go for checkup not like last time she always forces me to go and doesn't want her to worry so i went but now i'm all alone no one to supports me other than lyn jiejie but she didn't really know that i have this problem but jiejie i'm sorry i made u worry but i am not the same person as the last time you know me...I've changed a lot but i got to admit that I missed you everyday since the day i couldn't talk to you or even e-mail u. You are my sister and you always are, i love you forever. Sorry too always made you worried and shocked and i really dont know what else to say other than a sorry to you. Meimei feels sorry to you all i gonna say now is I'm sorry jiejie. This post its for you after so long.