heart dont feel good but letting it go bah

Today i woke up in the morning wasnt feeling very very well...whatever i take or drink i ended up felt like vomit out >_<>
"yen, u using ur textbox i wanna tell u something?"
*Stares*
"nah nvm i tell u later"
I shouted "Ines come back nah type"
*typing* nah done
i look at it and my MOUTH was WIDELY OPEN......and walked out of the class then walk back to my class......I WAS damn happy.....
She typed there " Teacher said our project both of us got 90+"
I was very happy and din wanna study commerce but i did just flip through....now i gonna just study my art theory work hard and I wish i can get an A1 i hope....so then was happy la soooo yea went to had the next paper the paper was really hard couldnt really do soooo i crapped....then the examiner said times up sooooo everyone happyily walking to the office to take our Leaving cert.....everyone was happy coz only left 1 more paper and who actually cares about art paper???SO i got mine and walked to canteen wait for my mum saw a few of my friends who taking accounts soooo yea.....chit chatted then mum here go off....went home i felt sad coz of what happen ytd and now i made up my mind why shud i angry at hme or hate him since i'm quiting already altho my heart wasnt that happy but i should let it go....So just now he invited me to party i accepted.....sooo yea sooo deal with it lo.....i have this feeling already before i quit shall say sorry to him bah although how much he scolded and teased me guess its over already bah for me...shall say sorry and i leave pko =)....then talked on the phone with von awhile she was pretty surprised that i will join the party neway i told her everything and yea time for me to let go and i dont wanna care anymore....anyway today just was abit weird but yea let i go bah since i leaving pko already.......now he to me is nothing....tml i getting my new phone....took me damn LONG to talk to my mum to buy me a handphone for my bday lalalala dream comes true =DDD happpppy.......okie la rj sis dont worry about me already kay.....

Hate Today

Today wasnt really a happy day....Went to skool for 2 papers today Art and Economics 1...hmm art paper was good i manage to draw.....not that nice but i'm happy with it...but for Economics paper bah really dissapointed cant really answer some can some wasnt good =/ and i cried at skool coz i really couldnt answer bah........bad day then got home bathe and all everything done....i went to use the comp awhile.....talked to gim jiejie she's very nice not her i wouldnt be able to finish my econs paper 2 on time thx jiejie i love u.....then while on the way to bar....shura called me and ask me so stuff so i taught him how to do the pet stuff and all while talking halfway THAT FUCKING ASSHOLE aka banana -.- scolded me saying i am noisy and wut crap he talk then he said i fat wth -.- i was just teaching shura how to settle pet stuff and scolded me wtf man...I GOT angry and pissed soooo i scolded him FUCK HIM MAN....I hope he get car bang or let gangster kill him off man I really wished man fucker.....what the hell did i do to u asshole i didnt even disturb u fucker.....die far far away la asshole......I got freaking angry coz of exam and got SCOLDED by him for no fucking reason......asshole.....von jie said sorry i ignored anyway sorry for wut i did but really pls i hate him for god sake.......sooo i got really pissed off and leave pko.....Anyway rj, gim,dhora,daddy,cereal and those names i not mention u guys are in my heart i love u and miss u guys.....i will come online on my bday as requested and anymore times u guys want me to get on i will but just for awhile no matter what u guys are always my frens if sisters always sisters brothers always brothers....thx for everything u guys done love u guys.....take care and love ya load....sorry if i did anything wrong scolded u all or insulted or whatever i wanna say sorry hope u guys dont put it in heart ok love ya all.....

Ps: sorry for all those words i really very angry sorry......

Worrrrrrrrieddddddddddddddddddd

SIgh.....i'm soooooooo worried for this paper economics =( sigh T_T i just hope everything will be fine =( T___________T sigh hope i can do the paper GOD pls help me =( T_________T sigh i hope today's paper are not hard =( sigh go back study

5 more days

Hmm.....ytd went to Guild war with deathnote vs Darkness.....its was kinda fun coz i ended up chatting with darkness ppl where they are on sea xD haha sooo fun =x but the worst thing was they camp on our portal swtness....but then it was fun i enjoy it coz quite sometime i did not go for guild war already hehe.....as usual everynight i talk to rj before i go to bed but last nite i did not after gw i was tired and i studied abit then i was very sleepy and i went to sleep at about 11 then about 1 i woke up studied till 3 then went to sleep about 6 something i woke up to sms von jie then done i went back to my dreamland and finally 8 i am awake -.-then time comes went dw with roi cereal rj we killed dw1 boss was fun coz been a long time since i bossing....then talked to rj about how much i hate lance and ignoring him like nobody business....then she was tired and she went to sleep i wanders around and then studied awhile.....at 12 -.- ryu jie smsed me and ask me to plvl her....so i did and guess WHAT i almost drop on my table and sleep -.- AMAZING right??? was toooo sleepy.....then i went to nap awhile then studied awhile then came back and talk to sepp jie....then i saw sour and taylor they ask me why i quit legacy told them then they went in front of church and look at banana aka lance and von -_-" then brave them shouted on local LANCE SUX!!! i was like omg -.- u guys damn brave....they are lucky that both of them afking -.- after that all gtg and i went spring bossing with rackus and dewata reaching that and rack died sooo me and dewa kill fox sage -_-" that stupid mob dont wanna die -.- and finally it died we got fairy box and mc soooo my sister wanted fairy box sooo i got it for her.....and came back argent pmed her went to look for her and she talk to me about her probs and i gave her this fairy box to cheer her up and yea she was quite happy soooo we carry on our how much we hate lance story then it was dinner time i got to go sooooo went to eat......then about 9 something talked to von on the phone -.- coz i was kinda bored and all so yea.....made her go crazy =x and then came back on talked to rj on the same topic haihz just HATE HIM for god sake.....altho von scolded him i still have a hard feelings on them in pko but not in real....in real i dont i can talk to von like normally dont have to ignore sigh i just dunno why -.- probably is me or just me sigh i just hate him alot T_T bah anyway i really need to go tml i have economics shall die -.- and i'm scared my worst subs ever....anyway hope i dont die tml......>_< okie i gonna go nite ppls.....5 MORE DAYS......kag jie i miss u and loves u pls come online i am waiting for ya......i know ur exams are over pls come one T_T even kali jie is asking about u...RJ sis I LOVE U forever =D

about yesterday....

Yesterday early in the morning went out for breakfast then dad says he wanna go to Clark's warehouse sale so yea we went -_-" we went there reach there WAS going to 10am sooooo find a place t park soooooo walk to the place and GUESS what......THE QUEUE DAMN LONG almost REACHING the main road -_-" waited about an hour till my leg sore only get to go in we went in about 11 something -_-"and GUESS WHAT -.- wasting time going coz dad's leg tooooo small no size for HIM soooooo WASTED TIME god......and then went back to the car and there goes again -_-" his car alarm SOMETHING wrong cant open the car sooooo called AAM and that FELLA who picked up the phone DAMN stupid -.- waited for the guy 1 HOUR plus -.- its stupid to wait for the guy.....so while waiting for him my dad was planing to walk down to the petrol station soooooo almost REACHING the petrol station saw AAM -.- so cross back to the otherside of the road then I got to RUN down to the other end of the road -_-" from one end to the other so i ran ran ran i reached there i ALMOST lose MYSELF.....sooooooo damn tired plus i wasnt supposed to run -.- oh well its over so reached home about 2 something 3 -.- then i bathe and dad's say wanna go 1Utama i was VERY VERY VERY happy coz yesterday got fly fm anniversary!!!!!!!THAT means i get to seeeeee my fave fly fm DJ jules =DDD so went there ate kenny rogers then head over to MPH wanted to buy a boook but then i think i shall buy it on the 6th when i go out with zhi and my group of frens.....so after that head to the NTV7 place bored there =x AND THE NEXT THING my fave place FLY FM ANNIVERSARY!!!! so went to the central park there and look......went there 1st person i saw PHAT FABES that bald =x then went over to seee ppl got dunk =x saw ben, steve, and also the producer of fly fm hahaha soooooooo funny xD and THEN i GOT to seeeeeeeee JULES!!!! then i saw prem toooo i took a few pick....on steve, ben and the producer got dunk i will post it later when i found my cable....I SAW DINA from malaysian idol tooooo she also got dunk xD hahahahah sadly is I DONT get to take pic with MY FAVE DJ jules =( sob sob sob coz my evil daddy dont let soooo we went home after that......then came online pk awhile then stoning then study then talk.....after that about 12 am elle is on and rj was on then we talked.......then elle went afk i talked to rj about lance and von how much i hated lance damn lot......and von jiejie knows i hated him alot the way he acted and all really i cant accept him....the way he treated me -.- i just dont like him do u know he wished me that i will FAIL my spm -.- and do u know he called me sumo and fat yen also he betrayed someone this is all the reason i hate him.....and hard to accept him.....von jie i am sorry i cant accept him and support u to be with him i'm really sorry so i will leave legacy for the moment till i can accept him and i will go back coz whenever i see or talk to von jiejie it reminds me of him -.- really sorry so i will leave guild for awhile till i can accept him really sorry kay......i will go to valentine for the moment sorry ya.....daddy i'm really sorry coz i cant support them and it really hard for me seeing a person i love most like the person i hate most its really hard i will ignore them for the moment anyway i will stop here i post about today later on......really sorry....daddy and von i'm sorry

Cried day

Today wasnt really my day...although the paper i sit today was okla can say its easy...then after exam called von jie awhile talk for awhile and waited for mum...then smsed him he said his fever goes off i felt relieved then my mum came and pick me went to buy food to eat i came home on pko and watch drama and made me start to feel sad...make me think back those days when i was small how my dad treated me and doesnt have a happy family for so many years till now....i really wants a happy family....now parents doesnt talk to each other or even sleep together...really hard for me T_T going out with mum my dad black face....i go out with dad mum says i dont care for her....really hard for me being a only child at home....what else could i do???i wish i had a happy family....i really give up...i dont know what to do anymore....somemore i having exams plus this problem i really damn stressed and pressure...yes crying and say die doesnt solve problem but i just cant help it....i have enough of all this i just give up i wish i can get out of here and dont care whatever happen....wanna know what happen when i small i shall tell u.....this is what happen

When i was born, my dad used to love me a lot going outstation to many places like shenzhen,hong kong,bangkok,Singapore,Perth and a few more places i cant remember, went with my mom's company trip...went there he bought me lots of things,even when he goes working alone to overseas, he comes back with souvenirs...

Till i went to primary school he changed a lot...and from there i started to cook for my parents to eat and get paid for cooking them dinner everyday....till now...thats why i know how to cook....everyday sleep late when i was in primary cause lots of homework in chinese school...and everyday dad had sooo much pressure at work and he comes home saw me doing hw or maybe cooking for them to eat he will starts to let go his pressure and all on me....

I always get whack everyday and going to school in blue black....some of my friends laughed at me,some actually concern and tried to comfort me if i have them to read this i will want to say thank you....Once i remember he punch me and my mouth full of blood and mom went to market, she was worried and come home then my dad act like i had whack him or something lying on the floor.....but he is the person who punch me how could i even whack him till he lying on the floor???

Small till now i already get used to all this....whacking,foul language i really used to them...once he took the kitchen knife and pointing at me and wanted to kill me...and lucky enough my uncle and mom was there...if not i guess i wont be sitting here...At least now he does really care about me but still get scolded everyday without a reason sometimes...i agree when i was small i was naughty but i didn't even make him angry...

Form4 i got into art class, he doesn't like it and every morning before going school and on the way to school i get scolded....one morning i was doing my art he saw me doing and say "why did u take art?You wont have any future in art.." i was like do you think in science class would have a better future???you cant compare....i was really upset at him and i told myself ignore him just ignore him......now everyday he look down on me cause i am in arts....

Now i told myself study hard and show it to him that i am happy in arts and get good grades and show him that i have a future later on when i comes out from college or maybe uni.....I really wanna show it to him that i can do it.....Its not easy but i will do it.....

I type this very long already i just dunno how to go on....i plan to run away from home but my pet sister stopped me before anyway i promised her i live a happy life and stays positive so i will...if its not momie talked to me just now i wouldnt feel better and smile right now...she mke me felt someone cares and loves me ..was looking for u rj but i couldnt find u but anyway i'm fine not no worries kay...right now i wanna sleep coz i not feeling well i fall sick so yea sore throat and flu ok la...i gonna go bed talk post tml =) anyway gtg take care

My dear hui =)

Guess which is him?if u guess until u rox =x
I know him from pko dont remember how but yea =x he is nice,caring,quite smart and my perfect guy...he is from terengganu and same age as me =x both of us having SPM this year and he is studying LIKE crazy (soon be a nerd =x jk) we both soon gonna be a month together >_< i cant wait till the day arrive telling me that we are together for a month T_T i am worried about him right now i hope his fever gone down T_The cant concentrate on his paper today due to his fever hope his fever gets better and tml his paper is ok really worried about ya....dear i love u forever and ever u always my dear =D hehe the perfect guy i known of all guys =D love u dear

now is the post on i dunno -.- my probs sigh i am really tired stress and pressured how am i gonna solved all of them T_T haihz really sick of family problems and also my problem always ended up fighting with my mom sigh i getting really very very tired of it =( sigh what can i do...exams are not over =( and then some more so many problems haihz how =( i wish my pet sis is here with me then she could at least help me with it sigh....jiejie where u pls come on after the exam i really need u =( anyway i gtg to study blog later on -poof-

What a day....

Today i woke up quite early and then went to check my mum went to work not but them...she was not feeling well so she din go to work.....so i din really taken breakfast till 11 something stomach growling really badly...so told von jiejie and i went to cook....i fried 2 pcs of ham 1 egg and 1 scrambbled egg....then mum came down and said she is hungry so cooked to packets of maggie for her so i get to eat also....after i'm done then she starts to nag saying i nvr study la this and that...then i said my science i got confident i get an A then she said lets see u fail or not we will see....i got mad and then talk back lo....i felt someone i care and love says that to me i feel a knife stab into my heart really deep was that painful and i was crying.....i said that because my dad and my relatives all looking down on me already all says i will fail and i wont be able to score and this and that.....i wont go college i was really mad.....but anyway i know myself i did study.....so after that i went back to my room and lvled myself to 68 i was happy then i went to study abit....then i played pk......then sleep then play pk again....after that von came back from skool kept saying she is dead. -_-" dad came home and asked me about my mom went out i dunno what to say and he kept saying she wants to create trouble i dont even know what's going on sigh family too many problems i really stressful and then i have exams somemore myself have my own problems sigh really stressful and pressure T_T god tell me what can i do =(

Was happy and tired then it went bad -.-

The day start of with....my dad making friggin so much noise in my room early in the morning soooo i got awake earlier so went to see pko.....saw dhora and gim online they were lvling in fortune so i played party pk for a moment....about 10am i started to lvling in summer with gim and myself sm...i was dualing with cloud's character...was plvling very nicely suddenly i lagged like crap and pmed dhora to log on to my shimmie so i dont have to dual and then i found out -.- my dad was downloading movies....sigh sooo we go on plvling till about 4 something 5 and i was too tired and told gim i'm tired so lets get out of here go back to argent so i took her back to north harbour and she sailed back to spring....i was happy that i lvled alot today....now my exp is 92.92% abit more and i lvled up to 68....soooo i went to bank and saw rj, jess and roi was talking so went to say hi and chit chat awhile....then i saw von jiejie came on went to bar looked for her -.- so she pt me ryu and xXDarkHolyXx (unholyman aka alex) then played a few pt pk then von jiejie said she wanna buy fortune set and i have like about 1k rum soon after GM settle with the problem and i kept telling her that i will get it for her -.- she somehow din heard wut i said or what -.- she ignored me....so went to find daddy all of them shouted at daddy and i kept telling her i giving her she still ignored me so i got mad and walked off and talk to someone else instead of all of them -.- really got me really mad.....i felt like leaving the guild but i know daddy darren will angry or probably sad so i din say a word in guild at all sigh i talk to momie instead than them at least she talk back to me......i would talk to momie better than any of them -.- thx momie for talking to me =D let me add talking to rj jess and momie IS really much better than all of them seriously....but then von jiejie's know i love her alot i wont be mad at her that long...she is my best jiejie ever i love u jiejie.....hmmm =D jie ah good luck on ur stpm yea i love u always.....I still couldnt find kali to talk to =( Kali jie where are u i miss u alot la jie =( where u oh i miss ur scolding and all T_T jiejie T_T haihz anyway von jie i always love u no matter what had happen ok.....U shud know coz i loves u more than anyone else ok la and rj thx for reviving and sorry to made u died =( anyway THX rj =D von jie no matter what u always my sister nvr change....i loves u alot and forever

This is plain Random =x

In pko, I was lvling my sm to 68 but the exp is only 71.38% =( so long more to go T_T but then i was partying a few ppl xD sometimes i dual on my own and lvl myself till i got bored haaha.....in the morning was lvling like crazy then pmed rj =x and talk for awhile when i was plvling my sm haha then i got bored and went to pvp....then walked around argent because i was REALLY bored....and then went back to lvling again with the plvl named ridd =x thx ridd xD that time i was 62% xD then went over to find von and darkholy(alex) just to do some disturbing...jiejie said she wanna go afk so went off with her to bar then pvp awhile...then i saw rj awake =x and went to look for her where she usually afk =X then she said "i got to help roi lolz" so i followed and chit chat with her at fortune....i dual and on my shimmering since rj have not seen before she felt so exicted lolz....then she asked me "why din i carry on playing ss?" so i told her everything....suddenly cereal came lolz...so plvl ppl and chit chat at the same time....after awhile we gather at a side and took a pic =D it was really beautiful....thx rj =) hmm i went rj through roi....that time was lvling in fortune and suddenly she came....then roi introduced me to her....she is nice,friendly,caring,helpful and etc xD she can be my sister already haha always encourage me and keep saying "good luck shimmie" when i was having exam ahah.....thx rj....Rj u are really nice u really can be my sister already lolx....anyway rj nice knowing u...really i can share a lot of my things with ya thx =) this is for u =D

Requested by Daddy aka lzual (darren)

hmm..how should i start??I dont really remember how i met daddy but then.....i know that we was in the same guild in darknessspirit his old crus name was ichachi....i use to bully him in pvp last time i remembered and a joker in guild =x haha.....but now u get to bully me back daddy....u evil..haha....after i quit pko for about 6 mths came back and i see the new darren with the name lzual...i was like "Who are U?" and then he told me that is him then day by day dunno how we got into the same GUILD again =D and somehow he became my dad.....a good dad =D i love u daddy darren =DD he is nice, kind, joker(sometimes) a great guy knew him so long can say that i quite close to him already.....Just recently i told him he got a son in law and thats drac soooo he did not object or wut and i just go on with it and he is happy with it i guess.....thx daddy =D Now daddy is the guild leader of legacy and i think i am helping him am i? i myself also dunno haha....but if u need me i will help u no matter what daddy....=) and daddy have tooo many adopted daughters.....but i'm happy with all of them =D daddy a good adopter =x anyway daddy i love u always......i know i am cute xD all of u says that thx......i shall stay cute =x this is for u =D love u and thx for everything =D

Woot new Blog

I just got this blog awhile ago still new to it >_< lolz very the noob on blog but nvm i shall just start blogging...since its my 1st post....i will just post about this 2 days what did i post on that blog....here it is...

this post is today just post it not long ago.......
What a day to start with.....as usual woke up and took my breakfast then studied -.- then played games awhile bah....then study again kinda really sicked of books already...Hope SPM ends as soon as possible so i can celebrate my birthday and then get my new phone =DDDD RAR!!!!hmm i gonna blog about my 2 pet sisters one of them i had already mention...she is also havin spm and i wanna know how is she doing i hope she reads the blog...i remember everytime i talk to her i ended up crying coz she always worried and cares for me even i have a small little flu...i know once me daddy hong worm jiejie on skype and then she went afk or something i was really sick and i din wanna tell her sooo i told daddy and hong not to tell but she went to read the history and she came to me and ask "mei why din u tell me u are sick?" then i told her "i din want u to worry about me" she replied me and said "u dont tell me i more worried about u" from there she does really worried and cares for me i always cry when she always talk to me and then every advice she says are telling me to change...and i did....jie i really do appreaciate everything u did...thx although i know u will say i din do anything at all but i know u did something to me...thx =) all the best and take care always love u my best sister =)The 2nd sister i wanna talk about is i knew her from a game called PKO went to the guild called Darknessspirit and know her there then i left the guild went to some other guild she invited me back there and i'm officially there and i think that's how i know her...she is also like erza aka kagano also always care about me whenever i sick she will give me this -_-" and ask me to go to bed or rest....i dont take medicine she starts to scold me and tell me to go take ur medicine....i dont eat she will say go eat....then she starts to scold me again lolz....i miss ur scolding tho i remember i was walking under the rain to tuition coz that time was really raining i smsed her and she said "why din take umbrella later u sick how?i love u too but then why u so silly mei?" she said that i felt happy..then now i rarely talk to her already coz i din see her on and i having exam also sigh....this sister is Kali thx jie...i missed u alot really...i really happy to know u both coz there's many ppl care for me especially this two sister i really loves u both alot thx for advicing and care for me everytime i needed u both...thx for everything that u both did i missed u both alot and really i love u both forever no matter u both still treat me or dont treat me as sister to me u both always my sister.....i hope u both remember my birthday hope to see u both online that day if u reading i love u always...thx jiejie love u Kali and Erza...this post for u guys...

Now i shall post on hmm love life....my love life really complicated...i liked demonpiratelance last time but now he doesnt talk to me for like 1mth or izzit 2??now i have lost feelings on him....and just recently before spm (my exam) started on the 11th i accepted draculehawkeye (hui) as my bf he is treating me very very well cares for me and all he is a great guy,handsome,smart,intelligent...to me he is just the perfect guy i have met so far....but then he really over protected me...always asked me this and that until i get fed up sometimes but i did not get angry at him.....he is really a great guy to him...and after spm he is gonna come to KL to look for me and going on a date i really looking forward to it man >_< comes ="D" soon ="D