Fall For You

This few days i feel that i am not bored not sien...coz i falling deeply on someone....that day was in a chat with car and ling we were just chatting then suddenly car added welly a.k.a jason into the chat so we started to talk crap...then suddenly out of the blue he says "shimmie lai we pak tor" then i said i was too young for him maybe he din see or something i said a few times then well i was already falling for him then end up =/ i said okie....well that time i dont know whether izzit true coz sometimes guys just playing so i accepted him anyway then we carry on chatting lor... Then was already late so we all went to sleep...

I really like him alot i falling myself on to him...so i still talk to him and he always made me happy...that time till 21st its a sunday we went out then he tried to make fun of me again...-.- that time not only me was there with him there's 7 other ppl...so we reach there 1st then only he reach he sms me say " I reach le...Asking waitress to get ready bbq place" he didn't even know that we already sitting at the cafe waiting...before i even went to the cafe was already chatting with him on msn....i told him i go there and sleep then he say if i sleep he pinch me...well so ngam that day he sitting beside me and luckily i didn't fall asleep thanks to my ice blended cappucino...That night i was really happy and he called me for no reason for 5 times...sigh....then was 12 edi so we went home....i kept looking and him and he walked off... That night i too happy till came home didnt sleep...

Next morning at about 1 pm he sms me he thought i still sleeping..ahah...i was happy so i sms him back lor plus that time he is working somemore....the whole monday i was smsing him enjoying myself and very happy ahha....then worried about him oh well...then ytd he acted weird suddenly he says he is not a good guy he do bad things sigh....even today talk to him also different from that day....sigh...i really miss him everyday i really fall for him alot....sigh...i really dont know...We like the same songs, our caller ringtone the same i feel like we have the same taste...Everyday thinking of him, want to sms him but i scared...I feel that he doesnt like me or something i dont know...but i really falling for him....i dont know why but yes only him in my heart right now can nvr change....sigh.....i guess he is the only guy i like right now no one else....SIgh....i falling for you very deeply.....

No more college for me i guess???

haiz....I might stop college soon...I don't have much money to go on my studies in Taylor's till 2010 the course there too expensive for me since my dad doesn't want to pay for my education fees =/...I have to pay it on my own and my savings can only last me till end of 2009 or earlier than that i don't know i really don't know what am i gonna do >_<>

Stop college and start working gonna be hard for me but i don't have the choice if my loan doesn't approve!!!Can anyone tell me what more i can do??SIGH!!!!! why is this happening to me =(((((?? haiz can i die =( i wanna go on studying but now i already dont know how....haiz......guess i gonna die soooooon......no college to study T_____T sigh.....bye bye i go find alternative.....

I Hate You forever

Well today is one of my worst day ever...I really wish i can leave this house and stay somewhere else...i really wish....T___T sigh.....Today, dad being an asshole.. He wants to borrow my bag to bring to singapore cause he is going there for work and he wants to use a bagpack well i have mah so he asked me....Then i said its there....I got things to do so i told him wait then i went into the kitchen see whether the food is ready -.- he being hard headed take my bag and said -.- you want ur things i was like really angry coz its my bag and how can you take my things and said i dont want....well i told him later i sort it out and will give you...Then he got angry and say now -.- when i started to eat my dinner he throw all the things on the floor -.- AND MY PSP SPOILT dammit....i started crying and he -.- angry....He said from today on wards pay ur own eletricity bills, eat on your own, he doesnt wanna sign my education loan either....well from there i know he doesn't treat me as a daughter anymore...and what more i treat him as a dad...sigh...

Since small till now he hit, whack me, take belt, take knife... I didn't say anything at all and now still wanna hit me i seriously don't understand well yes i am not a smart kid, not good in studies...he doesn't have to say that i bring bad luck to the family i am useless and bad...I seriously gave up in my life...i really hate it.....I wish i can leave this house....I studied like shyt for what? for my own future and prove to him that he is wrong.....I get good grades last sem he didn't even say anything he just said your result not good enough....I got stressed out and pressured did i tell anyone??heck i wish i can leave this place!!!!i wanna go mlk or sg i dont wanna stay here....I HATE HIM forever and ever.....i don't have such dad who says and do that to me....

My bday celebrationg on Sunday (30/11/08)

Quite awhile since i actually blog...plus i haven even blog about my birthday celebration....hmm after i finish my exams i had a bday celebration with my friends and college friends also my seniors college friends too...Last Sunday(30/11/08), I had a bday celebration with my friends and my seniors but oh well...sadly my sisters cannot come....Anyway, thx guys for coming i really enjoyed myself thank you alot...

Well that day, kimmy came to fetch me with zhi so we went to the curve for my bday...Reach there about 1pm then we went to redbox to line up to get a room cause i actually booked a room way much earlier.....So me, kimmy, zhi and yam sitting outside redbox waiting for our room, we sat down and chit chat till the person came to us and give us the room...We went into the room and they started singing, there's this waiter came to me and speak to me in cantonese well i know cantonese but then this guy speak damn fast till i couldn't get what the hell the fella is talking about...They carry on singing and i just stare at them sing and those songs i know i will sing along with them...

After awhile my college mates and my senior came Jasmin, Lek Huai and Nic came..Sadly Su Zhen can't come due to family gathering oh well its okie but Su Zhen thx for the wish ya!....So they came and i got my presents sooo Jasmin asked me whether wanna open the present she wants to see too so then i opened the box that jasmin gave me well she herself dont know what's izzit...So i got a forever friends teddy - Sweet Treat kinda cute...then lek huai gave me a t-shirt and also kim and gang gave me a necklace with my name carved on thx guys....appreciate it....haha kim and gang really kept forcing me to sing well oklor....in the end i sang a few songs...Thx to zhi for singing the "cause i got high"" song i laugh till stomachache because the lyrics REALLY very lame....So my friend called the bill and i paid for it, then they started to go more crazy cause i paid the bill and i don't want them to pay....Then they sing like nobody business.....After that over then all of us finish singing and they sang me the "Happy Birthday by Click Five" so we went off....

Me, Lek Huai, Jasmin and Nic went walking around then we went to curve one end to the other in cineleisure coz Nic wants to buy something for Jasmin bday sooo went to buy forever friends teddy for her...3 small teddy...for her after that we went back.....

Thx guys for coming yea....Owe you guys a big time =)
Here are some pictures:

This pic taken in Curve when i celebrate my bday...(L:R)Lek Huai, Jasmin, Me

This teddy is baby shim =D cute XD
This teddy is given by Jasmin...Name it after her this teddy Baby Jasmin =)

Birthday WishList! =x lol

1. An Ipod to replace my lost one T_T
2. Forever Friends TeddyBear CUTE!!!(Should be enough got 2 that i can hug it already...)
   
3. A handphone to replace my cacated LCD W595(blue) or W580 (black or white)
   
4. A good result for my final exam for semester 2
5. Go Singapore to celebrate my sister's birthday bash! I hope i can T_T
6. Go take driving test with kimmy!!!!!!
7. Have a nice birthday with my secondary school friends college friends and sisters!
8. I need an external Hard disk T_T ( Hope dad buys during pc fair for me)
9. The Gift book by Cecilia Ahern
10. Hopefully she remembers my bday and can sms me to wish me *will be waiting for ur sms*

I think that's all i wish to have but i know not everything i want i can have it....I know that money is hard to earn thats why i dont want to ask for much =) i just want my birthday to be happy and memorable thats all i want =D haha.....Hope i have a good birthday =D

Birthday party Coming UP!

WOOT 14 days i didn't blog already lol....>_<>OVER!!!! HOLIDAYS!!! PARTY!!!! lol....haha Exams over my birthday coming what a nice timing right??? haha...gonna have a early party for me and its TOMORROW!!! Having it earlier coz...erm some of my good friends having classes still so having it on a sunday..haha having it on sunday also good la...more people can come haha!!! =D

Oh well supposedly i look forward to tomorrow's party coz my college senior coming, secondary school friends and also college friends coming...but somehow i dont wanna care already due to =.= one idiot who supposed to fetch my college senior to come he told me that his dad wants him to go back to ipoh -_-" well i don't know whether izzit true but sometimes its really hard for me to believe him....Coz he have played too many tricks and prank on me its very very hard to believe him...so i don't care who is coming but i definitely will be having fun with my secondary school friend because they are my bestest friends i had for so many years...Hey my secondary school GANG!! You guys are the best of the bestest chee mui i had for so many years! LOVE U ALL man!! =)

I am sad about why my sister cant come to my birthday party...JIEJIE i wish u really can come and celebrate with me =( Wish i can see you...i miss you and love u sooo much...jiejie ah, u are always in my heart u know =) muacks i love u loadz....!!!

I got my 1st birthday present that day my coursemate pass it to me and tell me that its my birthday present want to give it to me earlier...So i went home sat down looking at it and wondering what it is....so till mum its home i open it i just open the side and i saw it...Then i left it aside...Mom asked "why din open all?" I said that i dont wanna see it scary!!! so she took it and open she herself got a shocked =.= oh well that night was a hell out of big surprise...In my whole entire life of my birthday my friends had never buy me such an expensive present...I bet you are wondering what izzit....


GUESS!!!!











OH COME ON GUESS IT!!!!







YOU MIGHT KNOW AND YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW WHAT IS IT!!!!









A HANDPHONE!!!! oh well...=D happy?
Sony Ericsson walkman phone the slide one...W595 =.= (the phone i wanted)

My New Gadget thx man!

Jie! i bet you know who gave it to me!!! You should know who!! The guy i always told you about and complain about! haha.....oh well....I love you jiejie! MUACKS and LOVE YOU FOREVER....i have something for you too =D

My list that i wants for my birthday

I haven blog for a long long time...oh well nothing much to say but exams coming then my birthday plan!! weeeee i really don't know what i wants but somethings i really want but not anyone of you can actually get it for me you know....well the list before can screw it i just do it for fun...this is the correct list:

1. I really want my sister to come to my birthday party that i have plan thats all nothing else and of course my pass leaders, college friends and not gonna left out my secondary school gang...
2. I want a W580i(black or grey) or W595i(blue or black) phone coz my K550i second hand phone LCD screen DIED =.= sigh not even a mth T_T coursemates bought it
3. I want obviously good result and thats definitely need me to work hard oh well... lol =x
4. I am despo to go to Singapore to find my sister but i will be going i guess with my mama..
5. *exceptional* I want someone in my life who actually understands me well enough....and be there for me when i need him...I dont want those giving me trouble and making my whole time =.= like small kid need to make him back happy and all...
   

That's all i can think of for the moment but i seriously want all this desperately except the 5th one coz i know it takes time oh well...just wait and see haha....=) gtg study ciaoz....

Work Hard for My Future

I'm so bored so decided to blog about my list/wishes...Eventhough i know no one will actually read it but what to do i am bored...Can't wait till December comes cause my birthday! =)

Here's it is :
1. I hope i have a memorable birthday with my friends that includes (my gang in sec school, my pet sister, my college pass leader who is close to me, and also my college friends if possible)
2. I want teddy bear the forever friends teddy!!! damn cute =P *doubt i can get it*( too expensive)
3. I want a nice notebook but then dad won't buy it for me T_T savings....
4. Hmm maybe a special gift i wouldn't mind...
I got my K550i hehehehehhe sooooo happppy lalalalal XD wooo hoooo one wish down....
5. I want to go Singapore hopefully get to go wanna go find red korkor and kali jiejie they all...
6. I want someone in my life that i can share my problems with an can understand me at the same time hopefully i can find one..=x
7.Hope i get to see my pet sister on my birthday party if anyone is planning it for me guess not...

Guess that's it bah...nothing much i wants just want a happy life with someone close to me and that's my sister....hopefully get to see her again...

Back to yesterday about the parents teacher's day at my college.My dad and I went there its already about 11.30am so went in through the sliding door saw Ms.Alice and she was looking for my name by then i told her that my dad did not RSVP with her cause i don't know whether dad wants to go or not where i always know it last min...Nevermind carry on, sooo she get the teacher's name for me and told my dad that my english teacher wont be around and we told her that we know...Then went up to Mezzanine floor, i saw my Introduction to Business lecturer talking to Kelvyn's dad so i go in saw my Accounts lecturer, Ms Firdous its free so went to her...Well she is very nice talked many good things about me and have a really nice chat with my dad..My dad telling back the same thing to my accounts teacher where she always tell us that accounts need to practice cannot be memorize..She wonders why my dad telling her the same thing till i told her that my dad its an accountant...Then they kept talking and my dad told her that i am the better ones among the worst =.= oh well...She expects me to get an A for accounts tho....

After that, went over to my business maths lecturer, Ms Tey, She didn't say much on me but telling my dad that i'm quiet and i just giggle away lol...Didnt expect my dad to tell her that i always sit at home and msn all day till she got to say about me and ask me to do more exercise and spent more time on ur studies..coz next time u gonna be facing computers most of the time...eeek i know my assignment marks i got 8.67/10 lalalala my group members i mean..but oh well another lecturer expects me to get an A or A- also T___T...Then went to Intro to business lecturer he ah i dont know bah....he also expected me to get better grades on my mid exams but i think i made him dissapointed so yea....and he also expect me to do well in my coming final exams T___T to get at least a B or a B- oh well i really dont know what to say at all..Went to Mr.Wilson after that....well he also didn't expect so low on my marks too but gotta admit it was my careless mistakes if not wouldn't have gotten so low.....oh well.....he also had high hopes on me wants me to get at least a B or a B+ sigh i dont know la....

Really dont know why all the lecturers have high hopes on me made me really very very stressful la...but i really wants to get good grades thats what i wanna made it clear....If not i wouldn't study and even care about my studies at all...Still wanna thank my sister who supported me all this while...Not you guess i wouldn't be having such a high hopes from my lecturers...Well time to work harder to get better results....=D must have confidence...okie i need to go do hwk lala =D ciaoz....

Tired Day for Yesterday.

I just woke up this morning and i have nothing better to do other than my tutorials and some other assignment that will due next month....but i doubt they will start early AS USUAL! Ah i forgot today is the day of my "judgement" day coz taylor's today got parent's teacher day and my dad is going.....AHHH T____T oh well hopefully my lecturer will say good about if not DIE.....

Yesterday morning finally got moral class for me attend, but as usual la the class is like pasar malam(night market) so noisy =.= till Ms Thama my moral lecturer 'exploded' lol for some reason XD haha but i was busy doing my economics assignment that is due yesterday at 2pm oh well....because i did some part wrong and left out some part so went to Ms Thama and asked whether i can go off earlier and do the assignment, she said its ok so i went off to do my assignment in E-access 2 so i sat down there and do.....These foundations students i really got no comment la....They playing DOTA in -.- College Internet Room =.= People doing assignment there, they play games damn geng...Oh well so i finished and print it out then i ask my friend whether she done the Reference well as i expected she didn't do sooooo last minute work....Finally all done....Just have to wait for Jack's question 1...lalalalala

That day we dont have pass till 5pm and its 2 hours some more...but i dont mind lor....PLUS yesterday all the teacher's got Annual Staff Dinner that day itself and the stupid college all close at f-ing 2pm =.= i dont even know wanna go where till 5pm. So me and nic went to Sunway Pyramid to have a walk while i hunt for my niece's birthday present so went from one shop to another then finally bought her a musical box "cant take my eyes off you" with a nice box....soooo there you go....then went to popular buy some pens... and that time was already 4pm....So went to see cars coz -.- nic wants to see so off we go to see Volve C70 nice car two door lol..but volvo cars -_-" drink petrol like drinking water -.- oh well....

It's time for us to go back up to the car park then i saw NIKE shop =x so i went in to ssee whether the sling bag that i want izzit there...so browse around then OMG =x i found it.....lalalala they have blue and black but the blue one looks too flowery and i nvr like flowery bag so staring at the black sling bag i like it soooooo much but no money to buy sad......so i complain and complain then walk alll the way to Al-ikhsan to see whether they have it maybe its cheaper went there DONT HAVE T____T then went all the way back to nike and stare again sooo nvm i walk around and look look then i asked nic wanna go now? then he said wait so i waited and look around lor....cause my brother's bday coming wanna get something for him too....soooo i guess i will buy him the arsenal t-shirt....I shall buy it another day.....Oh well then suddenly nic came to and ask "yen, u really like the sling bag right?" I said yea then he gave it to me =.= I was like wtf -_-" then i told him take it back i will buy it myself and he said nvm i feel happy to buy it -.- ma de oh well anyway thx tho....WEEE i got my sling bag but sadly not i buy -.- oh well.....

Then went back to Taylor's all the teacher's and staff not around coz like i said ANNUAL DINNER....so went to the class and wait for PASS to start....so chit chat till Jasmin my economics Pass Leader came and we started....then we finished one lecture topic we had 5 mins break then she look at the stuffs i bought....lol....then we go on with the next lecture topic...by the time we finished its only 6.30pm but i told dad is at 7pm sooo nice of them accompany me at old town yam cha together while they taking their dinner...so sat there and chit chat lor....Somehow talk talk can go into family problem topic and Jasmin tried to gives us some solution to it....but its really a nice talk la....made me almost wanna cry but its ok....a really nice talk...talk till =.= my dad came and guess what's the time 8 pm =.= crazy right? but Jasmin and Nic accompany me coz nic have to send Jasmin home so she dont have to call her dad to pick her up lol....So went dinner and came rest coz i was really tired haven had class till 7pm its crazy....lol....
*we consists of me, Jasmin and nic

I went to bed earlier plus i am falling sick but before went to bed i talk to my sis awhile then went to bed coz i really cannot cannot stand somemore my flu irritates me =.= oh well....hate falling sick but no choice who asked my dad to be sick lol....

Picture of my Nike Sling Bag!! WEeEEEEE

Nothing Special but Sorry lek huai jiejie

Hmm....Nothing much of happening today but kinda as usual missed my sister a lot but don't really want to disturb her doing her homework...hehe

Today morning at college on the way to my locker i saw Su Zhen my pass leader (stated last few post) in E-Access 2 so went in a disturb her a bit plus i need to pass her the jason mraz - we sing we dance we steal original cd to her since she wants to lend it from me haha XD so gave it her and had some chit chat since my class starts at 9am =.= lol.....That girl a bit siao want no class come to college but in the end she came to college got things to do de.....to pass up her assignments and help taylor's to work "so good girl" *ahem* (dont kill me if u reading ah =x) haha then she said she also got PASS =.= so she needs to go lol....oh okie so chit chat till she needs to "work" so i went back to my class....haha well today didn't really happen much in college just the usual thing....but i bet Lek Huai my accounting Pass leader will murder me because i skipped her PASS today due to early morning thanks to Su Zhen says "whining" reminds me of my pet sister and made my mood goes down so i didn't go to PASS >< sorry Lek Huai jiejie T____T didn't meant to do so....dui bu qi ya....

After all my class i came home my mood get worst, missed my sister and also have stuff to settle with haiz...stress like hell tho >< but i also said before i take my sister as my idol or someone that i admire of not her i wouldn't be here just like my Erza jiejie and my Kali jiejie... 3 sisters supported me this far....Thank you so much =) came back from class so online and had dinner and now here i am blogging....

I missed my old memories i had when i am small and the growing up of me till now sigh lots of memories i had....Just like what Ms Chen said cherish the old times and now...really start to think back want to be happy just go on with your day by day in a happy way then you will be happy =) haha trying to do so....but i really wish there's someone that i can share my problems and people listen to me....i really hope that can happen and people actually understand what i going through right now oh well...nothing is perfect i cant expect much ahah....okie la i need to go to do my hwk ciaoz....