Love Problems and Some Craziness

Oh well....I didn't really blog much now a days because i kind off busy with my assignments, homework and also my debate for tomorrow...I kinda preparing everything and also now a days have to study because after chinese new year i have a final exam and also an exhibition to do...So now a days really really very tiring have to settle sooo many things...plus kinda having more and more problems for me to solve....
Sigh i really wish i have a person is here for me and care for me of course my jiejie is doing that edi but i want someone more important i wish he is here.....but oh well we have agreed to have a break but i really still miss him if i say i dont miss him and want to forget him its totally a lie man.....i really really miss him alot but like i said i am fine just wanna have a break and i still felt bad that i dont trust him its my fault i still put that blame on me oh well... but then what is done is done cant really turn back already got to just face it......I really hope my ex bf can leave me alone for now i really cant stand it anymore, no matter what i tell him and all that i have a bf edi and all he stills bothering me he doesnt care at all he is damn desperate to have me and need me....calling me everyday and night one night can call me 50 times =.= i really dunno what this guy wants from me trying to get a replacement?using me?trying to hurt me again? i really dunno alot of questions mark around my head i really dunno whether he really likes me or even there for me...probably accept me edi and then dump me fro another girl again after he met another girl? I really dont want it to happen to me again i dont wanna get hurt from the same person again....the scar havent recovered fully and getting another stab i dont want it to happen again....sigh tough tho.....
Enough of that back to about ytd.....well ytd was PUBLIC HOLIDAY wooot so woke up kinda late then got to go buy dictionary for my english course because my dictionary was tooo small and i dont get use to it so went to ikano the popular there to get it...So went there got what i want and went to the counter to pay -.- SUCH A LONG QUEUE =.= because there's ONLY ONE counter open damn lame =.= probably i stand in that line probably HALF an hour =.= damn stupid.....after i paid then brought mom to go eat then bought some bedsheets for Chinese New Year hehe i got a GREEN bed sheet =DDDDDD woot......then after that my mum took me to KIm's hse i was late....kim open the door for me and ee may was standing at the staircase then i din see zhilin.....then 3 of us kim me and ee may just talk and dont care about miss zhilin coz somehow this girl soooo smart go and hide.....and guess where she hide =.= she hide BEHIND the TOILET door =.= and she still can laugh.....when i went there they were playing dynasty warrior sort off pausing the game...then i went there to finish up my homework....and smart ppl like ee may says i rajin oh god -.- then i was playing with kim's weird cat until me and ee may heard beeds dropping on the floor and guess what her cat's ass near the tail got one hole!!!! LOL =x then zhi sew it back...and we ordered mcd....we eating mcd and laughing our ass off like crazy coz zhi kim and ee may was like talking and me listening sooo damn funny..then they watched stardust while i finish up my homework and at last yinnie came and i done with homework....then i watch too lol =x zhi went crazy and laughing like crazy when they watch stardust LOL! she cant stop laughing i ended up seeing her laugh than watching the movie and laugh lol.....and i was like half falling asleep coz i was really tired then about 6 something i got home....
Use the computer when i home and talk to my lovely Meow jiejie =D well ytd we are like sort of emo she was in a bad mood and i was tooo oh well jiejie be happy bah....love problems always strikes us but make the right choice choose the correct one and like u say so u wont regret it at the end right??? i want jiejie to know that no matter what happens meimei always support u ok....i always by your side if u need me ok =D i love u alot jiejie =D nobody else i can support but i really will support u till the end ok.....=) i love u loads jie.....talked to jiejie till about 12.30 i talk to her till i forgot i got class the next day =x lol....went to college like half dead falling asleep xD haha....anyway jiejie, meimei always will support u =D
I shall stop here.....

Random just my problems

Oh well been a long time since i blog again...didnt really have time plus doesnt have any mood after all these things had happen....I dunno what to do actually after all my love problems i couldnt find anyway to solve it and i went ask for aid to my pet sister rj, von, Erza,Lyn,Ying and a few more of my friends they tried to help me and tried to cheer me up...They supported me all this long i really appreciate what u guys have done...After I misunderstand benny, he didnt talk to me till now i dont know what is he thinking but i still do know that my heart has him all this while the love and care i gave him i really couldnt let it go its hard i felt very painful although i really have to let it go i will try my best to do so since i promised i will let it go and stop thinking about it yea its hurts badly but i dont have any other choice i could do or think of to make our relationship back together....I really felt very useless that i couldnt solve this problems by myself every bf i like or love ended up breaking up i felt really useless...i couldnt do anything i dont even know what to do....but thx to all my pet sisters who supported me all this while and gave me advice on what to do thx whatever done is done i cant turn back anymore....well i guess its time for me to let go benny and go on with my life well to me its really hard but no matter how long or hard it takes i hope my sister all will support me no matter what i will sure let it go no matter how long and hard it takes......i will go through it...
I dont know whether is he still reading my blog but i just want to say I'm sorry for misunderstanding you but its really hurt me when u tell me that i felt that i'm not there with u and i couldnt do my gf job but i would appreciate that u told me everything and did not hide any secrets away from me thx all this while we understand each other well and does not have any quarrels till this turn up..i dont know what it means but i feel that u might like the girls more than i do after u met them...but if u do like them go ahead i will surely wish u all have a happy time together....Although i really loves u alot but love cant forced but really thx all this while u being here for me when i need u and really thx for giving me a hand to help out in my family problems thx alot....well guess is now to bid farewell to u but ust to let u know i will be waiting for u if u still likes me.....i still do no matter what happens....

I really do hope myself good let this big heavy stone done and go on with my life...Monday is my english course wish this would help me to take my mind off and concentrate with my studies for the moment what will happen next i dont know but i really hope he finally knows what he wants and what is important to him....i really hope he can know....coz i already found out mine....he is really important to me and also my future....but him i dont know i really want to know from him but i guess i should not talk to him till he knows.....been a really tough this few days for me crying, sad, lack of sleep, no appetite...All in a day really hard i dont know what should i say or even do well i shall stop here now...once i got the answer i will blog again....cya for now......

PS:Jie thx for everything that u guys done for me i really dont know what to say but really appreciate it that u all advice and supported me all this far....thx i owe u all alot....love u all so much thx i dont know what more to say.....