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Sigh i really dont know what to say but i really hate him a lot...always scolds me without a reason....just like today i came back from college "quite" early....then he was back and he tot that i went out with ppl -_-" man i have class and i just took the bus back like that also get scolded -_-" wth......U scolded me ytd i already din say anything at all and now -.- scold me more wtf man....yea yea u cared for me my ass....in your eyes i am always the worst and i can nvr succeed in life but i will show u that i WILL nvr FAIL for my diploma in business subs all i gonna study on....nvr ever gonna let u look down on me.....u made me understand what is the pressure and the willness for me to study and work hard...i just hate u.....yea u buying me stuff and all that doesn't mean much but still scolding me saying i staying here and treat here as a hotel man....-.- i dont know what u want me to do i going out with mum also kena what u want me to do T_T i just hate it la....i already having pressure with college and now u saying all this what the hell.....this might be a good song to u....i just hate u and for wut u do u get this in return....


I'm an asshole - denis leary

Sorry to jiejie

This post specially for my jiejie who i treated her as my real sister after all....i made a mistakes and i really wish jiejie would forgive me...Meimei really didnt mean to make u angry i just want to ask jiejie plus meimei din know u moving in 1st september i am sorry ok jiejie T_____T i know jiejie's situation and mine almost the same...because of jiejie's hardwork and support made me wanna work hard not u i wouldn't be working so hard...i should be grateful to myself to have you as my jiejie....not u i wouldn't be able to have the will to study....You know jiejie in my eyes you are always my idol and someone to follow with you know....you made me understand what is hard work and effort you had put in and you will actually score for it...I remember jiejie came to my hse that time and told me that dont play games le study hard, and i told u that i will do so and i promise u i will get good result and study...I don't wanna let u down, meimei dont wanna break promise and i wanna prove to my dad and myself that i can get good results and i wont fail i wanna do it....If not meimei wont work so hard always sleep late or i don't sleep at all i really want to do this i will be happy for it....I just want jiejie to know that jiejie meant a lot to me...and i didn't mean to make u angry....Jiejie always in my heart and u are someone who encourages me to study i love u so much....i hope jiejie will forgive me....sorry lyn jiejie, dui bu qi.....



Sorry-Buckcherry
Oh i had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I miss you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when i see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things i said to you
And i know i can't take it back
I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And i just wanted to say i'm sorry.

This time i think i'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when i see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things i said to you
And i know i can't take it back
I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And i just wanted to say i'm sorry.

Every single day i think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah Sorry!

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things i said to you
And i know i can't take it back
I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And i just wanted to say i'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry.

Rubbish.........

Hmm i know i posted just now but i am bored and i feel like telling everything all out if not i really feel like bursting out....haiz...what can i do?? i really feel like saying this out but i couldnt post it here because i dont want all to know sigh....i am very very fan T__T what can i do??? hard for me to focus on my studies and also i couldnt even sleep well at night T_T sigh...its not easy for me to go on with this road T___T very very tough for me to go on =( one person to go on with this road is really tough i wish my brother is really here with me....life really not easy T_T haiz....wish i have a happy life....but luckily i have kali jiejie, meow jiejie and red korkor around...if not i really cannot go on thx but sometimes its really hard for me to go on my life...but its really tough...to go on with this road....argh!!!!! crying really cant solve the problem but everytime after crying i feel soo much better...but ppl will say i am crying baby -_-" but i feel a lot better...life like this really tough...T_T ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh si liao suan le bah...bu yong jiang fan....thats the best.....thats how i feel now....who will care this useless girl here....hard for me to go on...i cannot do anything at all...i really feel like a useless girl and cannot do anything...all i can do is sit here and do nothing....

Random.....just wanna tell it out

Don't really know why i am blogging now but oh well....Time really passes very fast another new day hard to believe the day i doesnt want it to come and it really came soon....Although its really hard for me to go on but i still have to face it on my own...I wish my brother is here with me to go through this together but he is gonna face his exam soon soo he cant come sigh...I have to do this all alone.. T_T if i get to choose who to go with i would really be happy to do so but sadly i cant....Nowadays been thinking what will happen if this happen and what will if this wont happen will i still have a happy time? i tell ppl and ppl told me not to think too much...guess i really think too much but i will be going to the "torture chamber" on tuesday dont feel like going but i have to go T_T i wish i am dead by now then i dont have to go at all and i dont have to be sooooo fan like now made me cant sleep well every night...suffering like crazy...U always wish to be like this but it always turns out the other way round i really dont understand sometimes...well i guess life always have ups and downs but i guess mine is always on the down side huh.....

Lets talk about something else bah....

College life now still consider ok...but still a bit hard for me to cope up with...some still can understand some i need the reference book but i know as long as i work hard i will really succeed i dont wanna let anyone who have hopes on me to be disappointed...and also i doing this for myself not because of a promise or anything i want to tell myself that i can actually do it...i can actually score good grades...but i dont know why his blog(nic) always have to talk about me... i really dont understand....why just because of one small thing and u doesnt talk to me i dont get it....but to me i dont care at all whatever u doing or u talking to me or not is not gonna affect me at all....To me now studies are more important than anything else...nth can replace that place...Studies now is my 1st priority now...

hmmm really happy that dad bought me a new phone w880i something that i wanted quite awhile but really weird that why did he bought it for me? he rarely buy things for me and now he buying me a phone thats a bit weird....but still i got to thank him...maybe he bought this for me as a reward? or maybe coz of the "torture chamber"? i dont know....oh well dont wanna think about it but still thanks dad....If you happen to read my blog i know why did that happen and i doesn't hate u for that because no matter what you are still my dad but i know that you are sorry for that....=) love u dad....

argh....i got homework to do but i am lazy to do so...oh well i shall stop here....need to get prepared to get to go "torture chamber" on tuesday....cya tataz

One of my happy day it was a wednesday...

Well been a really long time since i really blog...I gonna blog about Wednesday that was one of my best day ever i can say that i really enjoyed myself and i was actually excited and DAMN kan chiong...oh well this is how it went...

Early in the morning hmm i woke up like usual morning but that stupid sms woke me up..from beloved one of my pko friend staying near my hse...so she asked wanna go out or not for breakfast or something? so i said ok lor...Then she came to my house, then we went to mcd for "breakfast and lunch" that time was already 10 something 11...So we went to Mcd then i said i want to meet my pet sister meow aka lyn jiejie who really cared for me alot....really want to meet her and give her the mountain of prezzies i bought for her....

Hmm so i decided to call her and ask what is she doing well somehow i forgot that day was 30th July it was her registration day...so called her and she said she is driving coz today was the day of registration then i pass the phone to bel and they talk....then after that i din wanna disturb herdriving coz its DANGEROUS after putting down the phone then bel started to suggest that we go watch a movie and all coz my dear jiejie only know sunway so i smsed her wanna go watch movie??? then she smsed now when i wanna smsed back SHE CALLED lol....sooooo practically she said she U-turn de soooo me and bel said ok la we meet u there so rushed back home and changed and all I WAS damn excited and bel said i was KAN CHIONG well gotta admit i really happy to meet jiejie u know....soooo quickly take everything and followed beloved back home to change also....so we walked outside to get a cab under the HOT sun....get 2 cabs and both doesnt wanna take us to sunway...so we waited and there's one more coming i said sooo we get that cab and HOOOORAAAAAYYYYYY he will take us to sunway pyramid....the taxi driver really a nice guy very honest....XD so we reached there and took the taxi driver number and walalalalala we are there at SUNWAY.....

We reached there earlier and walk around to the cinema to see to watch what show then jiejie called and asked where were we...sooooo went back down and went to meet jiejie...first sight i saw her and i knew it was her....so we went to the cinema to buy tickets to watch kung fu hip hop at 3.20 after that went to italiannies for lunch eat till bloated....i paid for it coz i promised jiejie i treat her italiannies and i finally did....cost me RM 55.80 i paid 50 and jiejie paid RM 10 for me but oh well....after that we went to walk around then watch movie....nice movie and funny tho XDDDD haha after movie she fetch us home and was at my hse for awhile...then had dinner with my mom near my hse at the One Noodle restaurant...hehe then went home we sat at my hse and chit chat till 9pm then jiejie went back...i finally gave her my present i bought for her i really happy to see that she likes the prezzie and happy with it...jiejie u know all this while i am happy to have u as my sister who cares for me thank you jiejie....love u forever and muacks....

We went out today again will post again when i get the pics from meow aka lyn jiejie and beloved 1st =D

hehe me and meow aka lyn jiejie at italiannies