Fall For You

This few days i feel that i am not bored not sien...coz i falling deeply on someone....that day was in a chat with car and ling we were just chatting then suddenly car added welly a.k.a jason into the chat so we started to talk crap...then suddenly out of the blue he says "shimmie lai we pak tor" then i said i was too young for him maybe he din see or something i said a few times then well i was already falling for him then end up =/ i said okie....well that time i dont know whether izzit true coz sometimes guys just playing so i accepted him anyway then we carry on chatting lor... Then was already late so we all went to sleep...

I really like him alot i falling myself on to him...so i still talk to him and he always made me happy...that time till 21st its a sunday we went out then he tried to make fun of me again...-.- that time not only me was there with him there's 7 other ppl...so we reach there 1st then only he reach he sms me say " I reach le...Asking waitress to get ready bbq place" he didn't even know that we already sitting at the cafe waiting...before i even went to the cafe was already chatting with him on msn....i told him i go there and sleep then he say if i sleep he pinch me...well so ngam that day he sitting beside me and luckily i didn't fall asleep thanks to my ice blended cappucino...That night i was really happy and he called me for no reason for 5 times...sigh....then was 12 edi so we went home....i kept looking and him and he walked off... That night i too happy till came home didnt sleep...

Next morning at about 1 pm he sms me he thought i still sleeping..ahah...i was happy so i sms him back lor plus that time he is working somemore....the whole monday i was smsing him enjoying myself and very happy ahha....then worried about him oh well...then ytd he acted weird suddenly he says he is not a good guy he do bad things sigh....even today talk to him also different from that day....sigh...i really miss him everyday i really fall for him alot....sigh...i really dont know...We like the same songs, our caller ringtone the same i feel like we have the same taste...Everyday thinking of him, want to sms him but i scared...I feel that he doesnt like me or something i dont know...but i really falling for him....i dont know why but yes only him in my heart right now can nvr change....sigh.....i guess he is the only guy i like right now no one else....SIgh....i falling for you very deeply.....

No more college for me i guess???

haiz....I might stop college soon...I don't have much money to go on my studies in Taylor's till 2010 the course there too expensive for me since my dad doesn't want to pay for my education fees =/...I have to pay it on my own and my savings can only last me till end of 2009 or earlier than that i don't know i really don't know what am i gonna do >_<>

Stop college and start working gonna be hard for me but i don't have the choice if my loan doesn't approve!!!Can anyone tell me what more i can do??SIGH!!!!! why is this happening to me =(((((?? haiz can i die =( i wanna go on studying but now i already dont know how....haiz......guess i gonna die soooooon......no college to study T_____T sigh.....bye bye i go find alternative.....

I Hate You forever

Well today is one of my worst day ever...I really wish i can leave this house and stay somewhere else...i really wish....T___T sigh.....Today, dad being an asshole.. He wants to borrow my bag to bring to singapore cause he is going there for work and he wants to use a bagpack well i have mah so he asked me....Then i said its there....I got things to do so i told him wait then i went into the kitchen see whether the food is ready -.- he being hard headed take my bag and said -.- you want ur things i was like really angry coz its my bag and how can you take my things and said i dont want....well i told him later i sort it out and will give you...Then he got angry and say now -.- when i started to eat my dinner he throw all the things on the floor -.- AND MY PSP SPOILT dammit....i started crying and he -.- angry....He said from today on wards pay ur own eletricity bills, eat on your own, he doesnt wanna sign my education loan either....well from there i know he doesn't treat me as a daughter anymore...and what more i treat him as a dad...sigh...

Since small till now he hit, whack me, take belt, take knife... I didn't say anything at all and now still wanna hit me i seriously don't understand well yes i am not a smart kid, not good in studies...he doesn't have to say that i bring bad luck to the family i am useless and bad...I seriously gave up in my life...i really hate it.....I wish i can leave this house....I studied like shyt for what? for my own future and prove to him that he is wrong.....I get good grades last sem he didn't even say anything he just said your result not good enough....I got stressed out and pressured did i tell anyone??heck i wish i can leave this place!!!!i wanna go mlk or sg i dont wanna stay here....I HATE HIM forever and ever.....i don't have such dad who says and do that to me....

My bday celebrationg on Sunday (30/11/08)

Quite awhile since i actually blog...plus i haven even blog about my birthday celebration....hmm after i finish my exams i had a bday celebration with my friends and college friends also my seniors college friends too...Last Sunday(30/11/08), I had a bday celebration with my friends and my seniors but oh well...sadly my sisters cannot come....Anyway, thx guys for coming i really enjoyed myself thank you alot...

Well that day, kimmy came to fetch me with zhi so we went to the curve for my bday...Reach there about 1pm then we went to redbox to line up to get a room cause i actually booked a room way much earlier.....So me, kimmy, zhi and yam sitting outside redbox waiting for our room, we sat down and chit chat till the person came to us and give us the room...We went into the room and they started singing, there's this waiter came to me and speak to me in cantonese well i know cantonese but then this guy speak damn fast till i couldn't get what the hell the fella is talking about...They carry on singing and i just stare at them sing and those songs i know i will sing along with them...

After awhile my college mates and my senior came Jasmin, Lek Huai and Nic came..Sadly Su Zhen can't come due to family gathering oh well its okie but Su Zhen thx for the wish ya!....So they came and i got my presents sooo Jasmin asked me whether wanna open the present she wants to see too so then i opened the box that jasmin gave me well she herself dont know what's izzit...So i got a forever friends teddy - Sweet Treat kinda cute...then lek huai gave me a t-shirt and also kim and gang gave me a necklace with my name carved on thx guys....appreciate it....haha kim and gang really kept forcing me to sing well oklor....in the end i sang a few songs...Thx to zhi for singing the "cause i got high"" song i laugh till stomachache because the lyrics REALLY very lame....So my friend called the bill and i paid for it, then they started to go more crazy cause i paid the bill and i don't want them to pay....Then they sing like nobody business.....After that over then all of us finish singing and they sang me the "Happy Birthday by Click Five" so we went off....

Me, Lek Huai, Jasmin and Nic went walking around then we went to curve one end to the other in cineleisure coz Nic wants to buy something for Jasmin bday sooo went to buy forever friends teddy for her...3 small teddy...for her after that we went back.....

Thx guys for coming yea....Owe you guys a big time =)
Here are some pictures:

This pic taken in Curve when i celebrate my bday...(L:R)Lek Huai, Jasmin, Me

This teddy is baby shim =D cute XD
This teddy is given by Jasmin...Name it after her this teddy Baby Jasmin =)