I Hate You forever

Well today is one of my worst day ever...I really wish i can leave this house and stay somewhere else...i really wish....T___T sigh.....Today, dad being an asshole.. He wants to borrow my bag to bring to singapore cause he is going there for work and he wants to use a bagpack well i have mah so he asked me....Then i said its there....I got things to do so i told him wait then i went into the kitchen see whether the food is ready -.- he being hard headed take my bag and said -.- you want ur things i was like really angry coz its my bag and how can you take my things and said i dont want....well i told him later i sort it out and will give you...Then he got angry and say now -.- when i started to eat my dinner he throw all the things on the floor -.- AND MY PSP SPOILT dammit....i started crying and he -.- angry....He said from today on wards pay ur own eletricity bills, eat on your own, he doesnt wanna sign my education loan either....well from there i know he doesn't treat me as a daughter anymore...and what more i treat him as a dad...sigh...

Since small till now he hit, whack me, take belt, take knife... I didn't say anything at all and now still wanna hit me i seriously don't understand well yes i am not a smart kid, not good in studies...he doesn't have to say that i bring bad luck to the family i am useless and bad...I seriously gave up in my life...i really hate it.....I wish i can leave this house....I studied like shyt for what? for my own future and prove to him that he is wrong.....I get good grades last sem he didn't even say anything he just said your result not good enough....I got stressed out and pressured did i tell anyone??heck i wish i can leave this place!!!!i wanna go mlk or sg i dont wanna stay here....I HATE HIM forever and ever.....i don't have such dad who says and do that to me....