Work Hard for My Future

I'm so bored so decided to blog about my list/wishes...Eventhough i know no one will actually read it but what to do i am bored...Can't wait till December comes cause my birthday! =)

Here's it is :
1. I hope i have a memorable birthday with my friends that includes (my gang in sec school, my pet sister, my college pass leader who is close to me, and also my college friends if possible)
2. I want teddy bear the forever friends teddy!!! damn cute =P *doubt i can get it*( too expensive)
3. I want a nice notebook but then dad won't buy it for me T_T savings....
4. Hmm maybe a special gift i wouldn't mind...
I got my K550i hehehehehhe sooooo happppy lalalalal XD wooo hoooo one wish down....
5. I want to go Singapore hopefully get to go wanna go find red korkor and kali jiejie they all...
6. I want someone in my life that i can share my problems with an can understand me at the same time hopefully i can find one..=x
7.Hope i get to see my pet sister on my birthday party if anyone is planning it for me guess not...

Guess that's it bah...nothing much i wants just want a happy life with someone close to me and that's my sister....hopefully get to see her again...

Back to yesterday about the parents teacher's day at my college.My dad and I went there its already about 11.30am so went in through the sliding door saw Ms.Alice and she was looking for my name by then i told her that my dad did not RSVP with her cause i don't know whether dad wants to go or not where i always know it last min...Nevermind carry on, sooo she get the teacher's name for me and told my dad that my english teacher wont be around and we told her that we know...Then went up to Mezzanine floor, i saw my Introduction to Business lecturer talking to Kelvyn's dad so i go in saw my Accounts lecturer, Ms Firdous its free so went to her...Well she is very nice talked many good things about me and have a really nice chat with my dad..My dad telling back the same thing to my accounts teacher where she always tell us that accounts need to practice cannot be memorize..She wonders why my dad telling her the same thing till i told her that my dad its an accountant...Then they kept talking and my dad told her that i am the better ones among the worst =.= oh well...She expects me to get an A for accounts tho....

After that, went over to my business maths lecturer, Ms Tey, She didn't say much on me but telling my dad that i'm quiet and i just giggle away lol...Didnt expect my dad to tell her that i always sit at home and msn all day till she got to say about me and ask me to do more exercise and spent more time on ur studies..coz next time u gonna be facing computers most of the time...eeek i know my assignment marks i got 8.67/10 lalalala my group members i mean..but oh well another lecturer expects me to get an A or A- also T___T...Then went to Intro to business lecturer he ah i dont know bah....he also expected me to get better grades on my mid exams but i think i made him dissapointed so yea....and he also expect me to do well in my coming final exams T___T to get at least a B or a B- oh well i really dont know what to say at all..Went to Mr.Wilson after that....well he also didn't expect so low on my marks too but gotta admit it was my careless mistakes if not wouldn't have gotten so low.....oh well.....he also had high hopes on me wants me to get at least a B or a B+ sigh i dont know la....

Really dont know why all the lecturers have high hopes on me made me really very very stressful la...but i really wants to get good grades thats what i wanna made it clear....If not i wouldn't study and even care about my studies at all...Still wanna thank my sister who supported me all this while...Not you guess i wouldn't be having such a high hopes from my lecturers...Well time to work harder to get better results....=D must have confidence...okie i need to go do hwk lala =D ciaoz....

Tired Day for Yesterday.

I just woke up this morning and i have nothing better to do other than my tutorials and some other assignment that will due next month....but i doubt they will start early AS USUAL! Ah i forgot today is the day of my "judgement" day coz taylor's today got parent's teacher day and my dad is going.....AHHH T____T oh well hopefully my lecturer will say good about if not DIE.....

Yesterday morning finally got moral class for me attend, but as usual la the class is like pasar malam(night market) so noisy =.= till Ms Thama my moral lecturer 'exploded' lol for some reason XD haha but i was busy doing my economics assignment that is due yesterday at 2pm oh well....because i did some part wrong and left out some part so went to Ms Thama and asked whether i can go off earlier and do the assignment, she said its ok so i went off to do my assignment in E-access 2 so i sat down there and do.....These foundations students i really got no comment la....They playing DOTA in -.- College Internet Room =.= People doing assignment there, they play games damn geng...Oh well so i finished and print it out then i ask my friend whether she done the Reference well as i expected she didn't do sooooo last minute work....Finally all done....Just have to wait for Jack's question 1...lalalalala

That day we dont have pass till 5pm and its 2 hours some more...but i dont mind lor....PLUS yesterday all the teacher's got Annual Staff Dinner that day itself and the stupid college all close at f-ing 2pm =.= i dont even know wanna go where till 5pm. So me and nic went to Sunway Pyramid to have a walk while i hunt for my niece's birthday present so went from one shop to another then finally bought her a musical box "cant take my eyes off you" with a nice box....soooo there you go....then went to popular buy some pens... and that time was already 4pm....So went to see cars coz -.- nic wants to see so off we go to see Volve C70 nice car two door lol..but volvo cars -_-" drink petrol like drinking water -.- oh well....

It's time for us to go back up to the car park then i saw NIKE shop =x so i went in to ssee whether the sling bag that i want izzit there...so browse around then OMG =x i found it.....lalalala they have blue and black but the blue one looks too flowery and i nvr like flowery bag so staring at the black sling bag i like it soooooo much but no money to buy sad......so i complain and complain then walk alll the way to Al-ikhsan to see whether they have it maybe its cheaper went there DONT HAVE T____T then went all the way back to nike and stare again sooo nvm i walk around and look look then i asked nic wanna go now? then he said wait so i waited and look around lor....cause my brother's bday coming wanna get something for him too....soooo i guess i will buy him the arsenal t-shirt....I shall buy it another day.....Oh well then suddenly nic came to and ask "yen, u really like the sling bag right?" I said yea then he gave it to me =.= I was like wtf -_-" then i told him take it back i will buy it myself and he said nvm i feel happy to buy it -.- ma de oh well anyway thx tho....WEEE i got my sling bag but sadly not i buy -.- oh well.....

Then went back to Taylor's all the teacher's and staff not around coz like i said ANNUAL DINNER....so went to the class and wait for PASS to start....so chit chat till Jasmin my economics Pass Leader came and we started....then we finished one lecture topic we had 5 mins break then she look at the stuffs i bought....lol....then we go on with the next lecture topic...by the time we finished its only 6.30pm but i told dad is at 7pm sooo nice of them accompany me at old town yam cha together while they taking their dinner...so sat there and chit chat lor....Somehow talk talk can go into family problem topic and Jasmin tried to gives us some solution to it....but its really a nice talk la....made me almost wanna cry but its ok....a really nice talk...talk till =.= my dad came and guess what's the time 8 pm =.= crazy right? but Jasmin and Nic accompany me coz nic have to send Jasmin home so she dont have to call her dad to pick her up lol....So went dinner and came rest coz i was really tired haven had class till 7pm its crazy....lol....
*we consists of me, Jasmin and nic

I went to bed earlier plus i am falling sick but before went to bed i talk to my sis awhile then went to bed coz i really cannot cannot stand somemore my flu irritates me =.= oh well....hate falling sick but no choice who asked my dad to be sick lol....

Picture of my Nike Sling Bag!! WEeEEEEE

Nothing Special but Sorry lek huai jiejie

Hmm....Nothing much of happening today but kinda as usual missed my sister a lot but don't really want to disturb her doing her homework...hehe

Today morning at college on the way to my locker i saw Su Zhen my pass leader (stated last few post) in E-Access 2 so went in a disturb her a bit plus i need to pass her the jason mraz - we sing we dance we steal original cd to her since she wants to lend it from me haha XD so gave it her and had some chit chat since my class starts at 9am =.= lol.....That girl a bit siao want no class come to college but in the end she came to college got things to do de.....to pass up her assignments and help taylor's to work "so good girl" *ahem* (dont kill me if u reading ah =x) haha then she said she also got PASS =.= so she needs to go lol....oh okie so chit chat till she needs to "work" so i went back to my class....haha well today didn't really happen much in college just the usual thing....but i bet Lek Huai my accounting Pass leader will murder me because i skipped her PASS today due to early morning thanks to Su Zhen says "whining" reminds me of my pet sister and made my mood goes down so i didn't go to PASS >< sorry Lek Huai jiejie T____T didn't meant to do so....dui bu qi ya....

After all my class i came home my mood get worst, missed my sister and also have stuff to settle with haiz...stress like hell tho >< but i also said before i take my sister as my idol or someone that i admire of not her i wouldn't be here just like my Erza jiejie and my Kali jiejie... 3 sisters supported me this far....Thank you so much =) came back from class so online and had dinner and now here i am blogging....

I missed my old memories i had when i am small and the growing up of me till now sigh lots of memories i had....Just like what Ms Chen said cherish the old times and now...really start to think back want to be happy just go on with your day by day in a happy way then you will be happy =) haha trying to do so....but i really wish there's someone that i can share my problems and people listen to me....i really hope that can happen and people actually understand what i going through right now oh well...nothing is perfect i cant expect much ahah....okie la i need to go to do my hwk ciaoz....

Felt lonely and left out at times

Don't really know what is wrong with me this few days...Been acting strange and always in the middle of no where i felt that i always get left alone or no one cares for me. I really don't know how to describe myself right now. The feeling is like i am lonely and always get emo for i myself don't know what is the main reason. Whenever someone tells me that he/she talking to jiejie and i feel that my jiejie don't wanna talk to me...Well i know she cares for me and i also know she don't have time for me cause she is busy with her work but sometimes i felt that i always get left out or maybe i just think too much...I understand her but sometimes its really hard for me, at least sometimes when i need her she will be there to help me out and advice me i appreciate that...Well i guess i just think too much bah...She told me before when her semester starts she wouldn't have much time with me soo yea...Oh well no matter what happens she is still my sister always.

Today i talked to my mom about jiejie, she said i shouldn't tell jiejie so much things and blah blah. Cause she scared later on we both might quarrel or anything else happen that can break me and jiejie up and i will get hurt badly. Well, i know sometimes jiejie will listens to me and jiejie wont tell much about herself but sometimes i really needed someone to listen to me when i am sad..I dont know whether me and jiejie later on will have anything happen between both of us. I really wish not. But no one will know what happen next time other than God. Will jiejie leave me alone or me and jiejie will have something happen and wont be sisters anymore? I guess if that happen i bet i will get hurt really bad.. Sometimes what my mum say its true, but i doubt it cause i trust jiejie wont be like that unless it really happens with my own eyes then i will believe. Sigh...sometimes other people tells me something about her that i don't know oh well but usually she will tell me but its abit later on..What i wish for now is hopefully she comes to my birthday party coming soon i hope she can come or maybe will she even remember when is my birthday but oh well that doesn't matter i just wish/hope she can comes thats all i want this year cause she is my sister...Hope i can have this dream come true all i can do is pray and hope..Well i will stop here no point writing on ciaoz...

Early in the morning made me angry or should say EMO

As usual i got up earlier today due to need to go for community service with my friends..So woke up and saw my mom so i wished her. Then chat with her while i switched on my computer. The laptop is on then i surf the net and on my Msn. I saw a few people are online so msg them and had a chat while i go and read people's blog in the morning noticing whether did they update or wutever.

I read finish all my secondary school gang friends blog went to read that 'guy' blog somehow i got F-ing angry about it. Actually yesterday i am already angry about it, just i thought maybe he didn't meant it so i didn't bother then today i saw his new post i got really angry already.Well if he doesn't trust or think that i will take his present that he wants to give it to my good friend sherryn why did he wants me to pass it to her? And why would I want that stupid RM100 voucher to buy stuff from nike? I am not so CHEAPO and i wont want people's stuff that it doesn't belongs to me. The next thing i am angry is he said this in his blog "i felt that one person which i don't want to mention names made me very disappointed even though taking things from me also never wishing me or anything. Just a greeting would have been nice and now that person has given me doubt that she treats me as a friend or a tool. but best not to think about it. and i also donno if the gift i gave out to the friend who has the same bday as me got sanded thru or not coz i did not want to give it personally as it is giving it to my old gang and i did not want to see some people there(who have threaten me and stab me in the back). haiz really the more i think about it the more i feel as if they are still using some means to use me as a tool." WTF is this? Its more like he is the one who everytime wants to fetch me home and always the want who ask me to teach him stuff....I did not ask him to fetch me back home, he is the one who F-ing offers. WTF man...I gave him a chance to change and he is still being an asshole. I should have like sherryn ignore him till the rest of the semester. Dammit...Its more like he is taking advantage on me than me taking advantage of him. I don't understand why people says i taking advantage of him -_-" wtf man.....early in the morning make me angry fuk....

Haha Pass Leader Gone Crazy

Hmm, nth much to blog about today...Although today i really don't have mood but oh well its okie...sigh sigh sigh....

Tomorrow need to go for community service in Klang =.= so far away i know.....bah doing community service for my moral assignment -_-" its not easy though.....I still dont know why do we have to learn moral....WHY!!!!!Say until moral =.= i should say my lecturer got no moral want -.- Always go to her class then last minute CLASS CANCELLED -_-" today also the same dont know we all kena how many F-ing times and the lecturer didn't even bother to replaced it..If i failed this moral exam i shall blame her =.= but luckily i know another lan lecturer from my college to help me and a very close lecturer with me...so its alright if i dont have that no moral lecturer to teach me =.= stupid de....If i can "fry" her =.= i think i will "fry" her off the college, in short meaning complain her and let her get sack =x haha...

OH no! my daddy is back from Hong Kong...No more freedom for me.....sigh sigh i got back my results haven even let him know ahhhhhhh i dont know what's gonna be his reaction when he knows T____T will i get killed???will i get scolded??? oh well i really dont know.....haha but then i am ready to get screwed.....oh well...

OH almost forgot, today i went to Peer Assisted Study Session(PASS) for my business maths whereby there's a senior teaching us sooo yea...i am the only one there she, Su Zhen got a shocked and said thank you for coming if not i will be so" kelian" (pityful) to be alone...oh well i cannot break promise cause i promise her that i will be going for her PASS because i will need her help due to i am not good at it and whenever going to exam i will ask her out to teach me before going for exams....haha but then when we having PASS today so she said since only you one person can play songs...So i left my handphone song on so it kept playing and playing then she hear until some songs she like she went "OMG i want the song i want the song bluetooth it to me" lol.....dont know how many times already lol....then carry on teaching me again and she suddenly turn to me and ask me how much did i get for my business maths marks? i told her i get 32/50 she was happy for me but i told her that i not happy with it coz i made a few careless mistakes on my MCQs then she said its ok you will do better in finals soooo i will be listen to her and oh well coz she is my pass leader mah plus she said 32/50 consider very good edi plus she is happy for me so i should be happy haha so after that she carry on teaching me till....then suddenly she hear until pocketful of sunshine song by natasha bedingfield she went "OMG i want!!!! send send to meeeeeee"lol so i sent it to her...then she go on with teaching me then we chit chat and she teach also.....Then she started saying " now i know who to find for songs lol...." oh well i am willing to give u all my songs to you haha!!!! i dont mind burning it into a cd for u too....lol...haha soooo she teach me till 3.00pm then PASS over...we chit chat while we packing and waited for lift and go to ground floor while she went to 1st floor put back the file =P haha....Anyway, Su Zhen my pass leader for Business Maths she is super nice and friendly but then abit crazy at times =x lol....She is my jiejie in short coz we call over pass leader jiejie LOL haha.....okie la need to go do my work ciaoz...

My results for 2nd semester Mid term exam

I just got back my result not long ago the last paper i took it was today. Overall i did ok, but as usual i always have an expectations of getting for each paper but got 2 subjects i din do very well is my macroeconomics and my introduction to business. I like macroeconomics a lot but i didn't get a very good results and i know it's because of my essay part i screwed it up a lot. I was very disappointed in myself that i din get a really good result for my macroeconomics or maybe i like the subject till i gave my own expectations too high. Introduction to business not i don't like the subject but its very similar to form 4 and form 5 Perdagangan last time =/ i feel its hard for me but i still tried to study and understand each and everything of the lecture notes that my lecturer gave. After this result i have gotten, I told myself i must work hard for my final exam i don't wanna fail any subjects and getting a B- for any of my subjects i need to work hard. So nowadays been pushing myself to study more and do more revisions then go to PASS session that my senior is teaching us, all of them willing to help us but sometimes many people didn't wanna go and the senior have no choice but have to close down the PASS class. Oh well but i hope those PASS class wont cancel cause i really need the seniors to help me.

My result for my mid semester exams:
Introduction to business = 10.25/20
Macroeconomics = 11.5/20
Business Mathematics = 12.8/20
English = 13.62/20
Accounts = 14.5/20
Accounting Individual Assignment = 7.5/10

Overall i did good, my gang of friends also did good some of the subs they are better than me some i am better than them by abit but i dont wanna compare coz we are all the same and we are humans also have feelings also but i am also happy abit with my result but to me i still can do better. Final exams i will work hard i wont give up on myself i will go on till the end. Because i know lyn jiejie and even the jiejie i miss for almost a year would support me too. okie gtg i need to do work.

To my sister i knew for a long time. To Erza aka Rachel

Not really happy today...something really been bothering me a very very long time. Just i didn't say it put for about a year or so? After SPM over till now i kept it to myself didn't even take it out and talk to people about it. Sometimes its really hard for me but i still go on with it no matter how much i missed her i still kept it to myself and think about her almost everyday. Since the day she stop talking to me till now i still thinks about her everyday. You might think i might be crazy but i treat all my sister the same. They are very important to me, anyone of them in trouble i would be sad and tried to help and also be there for them. That's what i usually do.

Last time i use to blog about her but sadly she couldn't read it at all coz i dont even know will she talks to me again on msn or even an e-mail from her or even a friendster comment from her i've been waiting the day to arrive since 30th of december till now. Finally the day that i have waited finally arrived. That sunday morning i tried my luck and left her a comment on her friendster because usually every month i will her a comment but recently i very busy so didn't bother that day tried i thought it would be the same but that night i checked my friendster there's a new comments sign showed on my profile so i thought it might not be her maybe someone else but surprisingly was her. I waited the day for such a long long time she finally left me a comment. I was really happy to see her comment but as usual she is always worried about me. I always let her worried about me i felt so bad.

I met her in pko for quite a long time before we even went for SPM, whenever i am sad or down she is always there for me to guide and advice me. She knows i will never let her down because i always listens to her and also always tried to make her happy whenever she is sad. Once i remember my friends that i use to had online wasnt happy with me at all and they went to her and talk about it, then that night she tried to talk to me about it. No matter what she said or what i know she wants me to be good thats why i didn't blame them for telling her. Plus she is my sister obviously they would go to her and they knows i always listens to her.But sadly i always made her sad and scared that she would me as a sister due to last i had health problem. Now i still do just its getting better and i didn't bother to go for checkup not like last time she always forces me to go and doesn't want her to worry so i went but now i'm all alone no one to supports me other than lyn jiejie but she didn't really know that i have this problem but jiejie i'm sorry i made u worry but i am not the same person as the last time you know me...I've changed a lot but i got to admit that I missed you everyday since the day i couldn't talk to you or even e-mail u. You are my sister and you always are, i love you forever. Sorry too always made you worried and shocked and i really dont know what else to say other than a sorry to you. Meimei feels sorry to you all i gonna say now is I'm sorry jiejie. This post its for you after so long.

What a day....

Well today as usual woke up and went for jogging...then went breakfast with my mom and bought some vegetables and fish to cook in the afternoon...Came home i rest awhile and the gang came together for kimmy's birthday surprise party...

The gang came and we sat down then we chit chat and do some catch up because been a really really long time since we met each other and also been a long time since we had our group gathering...then i start to ask them what's their plan and see whether they want to eat or not cause i have already eaten my lunch my mom cooked...Then they finally decided to order domino's pizza so i called them and ordered at about 1.10...After that ee may started to be impatient so i called kimmy and asked where is she...Then she said "I'm leaving the house now" So i went to the fridge and took out the cake from the fridge then they light it up....The pizza came 1st before kim actually reach my hse...-.-....Kim finally came and i tried to hold her up but i couldnt T_T in the end she saw there's a light inside the house and surprise...well i kinda blow it off but still she did surprised also oh well....They sat down happily eating the cake pizza and drinking sprite.All of us chit chatting and eating and that stupid zhilin =.= keep asking me to go japan and cry like the girl in the tvb show "seventh day" i dont know why must it be me T___T So we plan to go starbucks for a coffee, since zhi drove here so she drove us to starbucks so she can happily do her hwk there....Went there ordered and carry on our catch up there....ARGH i am tired =.= to go on writing forget it....Just not in a right mood now...

I not in the mood because last time i am close to a person and now we rarely even talk to each other not even talked on the phone or even sms or even on msn....it drives me crazy sometimes...When someone is close to u and now bah not anymore its really made me feel like i am not important anymore....sigh....Sometimes wanna find someone to talk to dont know who to find other than my jiejie but sometimes she is busy well i know when is she busy and when she is not....When she busy she wont pick up my calls and wont reply me on msn well i know she is busy and i dont blame her or wutever..I willing to be the one who suffer and care for her...coz i am a person who doesnt want my sister or anyone else to be sad...Although sometimes i really wants someone to care for me but i wont mind anything....but sometimes i really feel that jiejie does care for me its just she just doesnt actually have time to that...Oh well, as long as my jiejie is happy i wont mind suffering or wutever....that's all i gonna say...coz she is my sister and i want her to be happy not sad...Just want to be there for her whenever she needs someone that's what i always do...anyway love u always my jiejie...especially kali, lyn, von and trin jiejie =)

Someone i miss and treated as my family all this long...

Just feel like blogging cause i missing someone...Didn't really talk to her much this week cause she is back home for holidays either today or tomorrow she will only back to cyber....I don't know why nowadays i am not in the mood and wants someone to talk to, i just feel like i'm useless although i know many people will say that i'm not even the person i miss too...

Well i know she is always supporting me behind my back eventhough she always busy with his work and all but sometimes she also will at least spents sometime with me though i know she have lots of things to do...Jie eventhough you didnt spent much time with me, meimei knows that you are always at my side supporting me no matter how busy you are...Sometimes i might hurt or make you angry i'm sorry but no matter what you are always my jiejie that i know for almost a year...Like what i said not you supported me since the day i started college i wont have such good results and have the will to study...Jiejie, you made me understand that if you work hard you will achieve results with flying colours...The more effort you put in to it, the more you will achieve...That's what i learn...Jiejie always busy with work so hardworking, you know jiejie is someone i admire all this long since the day i know you.

Although i know jiejie not really very long but i feel like i know you for like many many years already but jiejie always busy busy but in the end always wake up really late...jiejie ah dont see your meimei dont know you oh actually ah i know many things about you oh....You know i've been thinking if i dont know jiejie and u didnt support me ah i guess now in college i think i failed and will be working now....i guess jiejie's the one who is always supporting and always there for me when i need you or even when i am really down and wants someone to talk to....i really glad that i know you..Remember the day i went to Hong Kong, you said you will miss me and then the day i left for Hong Kong jiejie said webcam with me...Then i smsed you when i was in Hong Kong mom's phone got your phone and i didn't know my mom called you....jieije also didnt tell me my mama called well understand geh mom ask you not to tell me...haha i bet my mama tell you lots of my notty stuff....haha when you come my hse i take you go my baby sitter house i bet you will know more of my notty stuff haha jiejie ah you are always part of my family....and always in my heart....i loves you always and miss you always too

Will stop here now need to go do some homework....I love you jiejie always forever and ever....Jiejie always part of my family, jiejie is always my family love you always ...muacks....thanks for everything you have done for me...=D

Emo Leads to A Better Thinking to my Sister

Been a really long time since i actually blog...Nowadays, i have been really moody, no mood at all, cant really have a positive thinking...I always get pissed off at anyone very easily and i explode very very easily, i seriously don't know what else to do..Past few days i've been thinking what is wrong with me and all but i cant think...I'm getting really really feel very useless..haiz T_T I am so stress pressured and moody...Always make ppl angry i am really useless right?

I always not happy go and find my lyn jiejie when she is busy. If i am not her sister i guess she wont be helping me so much and supporting me always want to make me happy whenever i have problems eventhough she is busy she will try to spent some time with me to make me happy. She always there for me when i really need her by my side i really appreciate a lot..That day i ask my friend to pass present to her with a letter, when she received it, she sms me and said "wei,why you buy so many things?zzz. You want to die arr.." Whenever i buy her stuff and give it to her she will surely say " You wanna die ar" Then she read the letter, she said very touched by my letter. Jiejie what i wrote in the letter its all true. If not jiejie always support me behind i think i wont be studying so well and plus see jiejie always so hardworking being ur meimei really feel like if i not hardworking its a bit so wrong. Jiejie always someone i admire and also someone i wanna follow de footsteps. I still remember no matter how busy is my jiejie, you will always be there to help me jiejie ah i will surely get goods result and wont let jiejie disappointed. No matter what if jiejie not happy meimei always here for you de wont let you down at all. Meimei suffer how much also never mind coz its worth it for my princess jiejie because i want my jiejie to be happy not sad. Jiejie always in my heart.

This post not only goes to lyn jiejie. It also goes to kali jiejie, you also always there for me when i need someone to talk to thank you. I really want you all to know that your meimei forever here for you when you need me because i doesnt want you all to be sad...No matter how much i suffer i willing to be here for you because you all are very important to me. I think i will stop here, i am tired already goodnight.

Jiejie you always in my heart, even i suffer till i die i will always be there for you when you need me or whenever jiejie not happy need me i will surely be there for you because my princess jiejie is always important to me and always in my heart forever. Love you forever and ever my princess jiejie.