Random just my problems

Oh well been a long time since i blog again...didnt really have time plus doesnt have any mood after all these things had happen....I dunno what to do actually after all my love problems i couldnt find anyway to solve it and i went ask for aid to my pet sister rj, von, Erza,Lyn,Ying and a few more of my friends they tried to help me and tried to cheer me up...They supported me all this long i really appreciate what u guys have done...After I misunderstand benny, he didnt talk to me till now i dont know what is he thinking but i still do know that my heart has him all this while the love and care i gave him i really couldnt let it go its hard i felt very painful although i really have to let it go i will try my best to do so since i promised i will let it go and stop thinking about it yea its hurts badly but i dont have any other choice i could do or think of to make our relationship back together....I really felt very useless that i couldnt solve this problems by myself every bf i like or love ended up breaking up i felt really useless...i couldnt do anything i dont even know what to do....but thx to all my pet sisters who supported me all this while and gave me advice on what to do thx whatever done is done i cant turn back anymore....well i guess its time for me to let go benny and go on with my life well to me its really hard but no matter how long or hard it takes i hope my sister all will support me no matter what i will sure let it go no matter how long and hard it takes......i will go through it...
I dont know whether is he still reading my blog but i just want to say I'm sorry for misunderstanding you but its really hurt me when u tell me that i felt that i'm not there with u and i couldnt do my gf job but i would appreciate that u told me everything and did not hide any secrets away from me thx all this while we understand each other well and does not have any quarrels till this turn up..i dont know what it means but i feel that u might like the girls more than i do after u met them...but if u do like them go ahead i will surely wish u all have a happy time together....Although i really loves u alot but love cant forced but really thx all this while u being here for me when i need u and really thx for giving me a hand to help out in my family problems thx alot....well guess is now to bid farewell to u but ust to let u know i will be waiting for u if u still likes me.....i still do no matter what happens....

I really do hope myself good let this big heavy stone done and go on with my life...Monday is my english course wish this would help me to take my mind off and concentrate with my studies for the moment what will happen next i dont know but i really hope he finally knows what he wants and what is important to him....i really hope he can know....coz i already found out mine....he is really important to me and also my future....but him i dont know i really want to know from him but i guess i should not talk to him till he knows.....been a really tough this few days for me crying, sad, lack of sleep, no appetite...All in a day really hard i dont know what should i say or even do well i shall stop here now...once i got the answer i will blog again....cya for now......

PS:Jie thx for everything that u guys done for me i really dont know what to say but really appreciate it that u all advice and supported me all this far....thx i owe u all alot....love u all so much thx i dont know what more to say.....