Problems Strikes

Sorry past few days i was not in town so didnt blog i just back from penang not long ago...Went back to penang wanted to relax myself and get my minds off all the problems and have fun...Although i did had fun there but there's many things i couldnt let go and its not easy sigh i really hope i could let all of it go....over there i could get sleep and dont have to think so much got niece and nephews to make me happy and make me scold them.....over there i really could get a goood sleep and enjoy myself really happy and i dont have to care about my problems....I came back from there i couldnt sleep and always stay at home and thinking of all this things i really very tired i couldnt let go.....here is like telling what is done is done i couldnt let everything go....and i cant turn back the time...I hope there's a solution for me to solve it...yes true nobody can care for me 24 hours but i really need someone i loved and care for be here for me but then both of them bz with work...one of them working but when i call her she is bz and i called her at night she din pick up bz playing pko.....the other bz working tired and din see him online...e-mail also nvr reply i really wish both of them is here for me everytime when i need them....yes they cant be taking care of me all the time but i really need them they are the person i love and care i really need them i dont have them my heartache and i feel bad.....but rj thanks for everytime being there for me when i needed someone not u i couldnt tell y things to anyone u are a sister i love too between the two......i really hope i could talk to von and erza aka kagano as sooon as possible sigh but no choice no hope....leaving this place is even better than nothing....health not good heart not good sigh...life anyway have fun reading i need to go no mood.....